That enthusing feeling
Over-enthusiasm can be dangerous. It has begun affecting me seriously. Every now and then the realization springs up that I just can’t wait for the MBA to begin.
It generally strikes when I’m in the management meetings at my workplace, fidgeting with my cell phone, when I hear my name being mentioned and my opinion being sought on random topics. They appear random because I have never heard of them before, and suddenly, all eyes (and ears, since we are almost always teleconferencing) are on me. Instead of appearing clueless, I get the opportunity to practice one of the skills I have been trying to perfect since last year – the art of arbitrary articulation. It calls for discussing something that you don’t know about but ending up sounding like an expert. I know. I’m far from becoming a successful management consultant, but I’m getting there.
Then there are moments when I’m at my uncharacteristic best where I begin to engage complete strangers in conversations that don’t venture beyond small talk. Even while I’m at it I can’t believe its me who’s doing so. I would have never initiated it earlier, nor even been a willing participant ever, but probably the thought of an MBA is bringing about these changes in me. And surprisingly it doesn’t feel as bad nowadays.
I wasn’t like this. So whats happening ? Maybe my operating system knows that I’ve survived too long on a version that was doing fine so far but I require an upgrade now to support all the fabulous softwares that come bundled with an MBA. It seems I wanted more from my MBA than to just learn about business, and I am set to change in more ways than I had bargained for.
While enjoying my weekends and having the luxury to spend time with my family, I realize that the clock is ticking away, bringing me closer to a life that will change the way I think, behave, and act. And taking me away from this life that was so good; if only I could have been more satisfied with it.
I am fine with change. It generally passes unnoticed. What intrigues me is my enthusiasm for the next two years. What can it see coming that I cannot ?